When I am at my lowest, God is with me. I may feel as if I am completely alone, utterly abandoned, and yet He never leaves me. Even when I am faithless, God is faithful. He is my strength when I am weak, my joy when I am desperate, my peace when I'm afraid. Why does my heart not understand this? I know it to be true and yet I cannot seem to rely on it as I should. The journey is a long one. God doesn't just wave a wand over our lives and poof everything is as it should be. Rather, He allows us to participate in our sanctification. It hurts. Frankly, it sometimes stinks. I don't always believe that He will work all things for my good and His glory though I know it to be true. Daily I must be reminded. Daily I have to pray. Oh that I would say with Paul that I will "boast all the ore gladly about my weakness" that "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." I might be able to one day, though I'm not sure if it will be in this world or the next. For now I fall at the foot of the cross, crying out that my strength is not sufficient. Maybe that's where I always need to be.
Monday, December 21, 2009
Saturday, December 12, 2009
I got this idea from Brian Franklin's blog and thought it was great! These are my favorite books of 2009. They aren't all that deep or philosophical, but I'm proud to have finished a few and the rest were just fun! Leave your top five as well!
1.) The Count of Monte Cristo by Alexander Dumas
The discussion of revenge in this book is quite interesting.
While I did not agree so much with the conclusion, I very
much enjoyed reading the story.
2.) Mere Christianity by C.S. Lewis
I tried reading this once in high school
and failed. For some reason I found it
difficult. This time around it really made
sense. His practicality and theology
are so rich. I would recommend it to anyone
3.) Emma by Jane Austin
With her witty dialogue and satire
Jane Austin never fails to keep my attention.
Emma had me laughing out loud almost
every time I read it.
4.)Don't Waste Your Life by John Piper
Another second timer, Don't Waste Your Life
has a lot of good things to say. I will probably
read it again though as I was struggling with
insomnia quite a bit this time and didn't absorb
all of it. However, I still found it inspiring.
5.)Fer de Lance by Rex Stout
I love mysteries. My favorite author so far
is actually Harlan Coben, he never fails to
shock me with the conclusion, but I just
recently started reading about Nero Wolf,
a quite fat detective and Arche Goodwin, his
assistant. Witty and clever, I will probably be
reading more of Stout's works in the near