Monday, January 26, 2009

Looking to the Future

I have a tendency to get very excited about new things.  This can be good, no one can ever accuse me of being apathetic, but often times this sets me up for disappointment.  Recently, I have been planning for the future, for when I go back to the good old U.S. of A.  I've always wanted to do youth ministry and have been able to do a lot here in Peru with some of the missionaries daughters and more recently with some of the girls from Arevalo Church (I've been hesitant to work with them because of my limited Spanish but have just decided I'd rather make a fool of myself than miss this opportunity).  But last week I decided to take a few steps in looking for a job in the US.  I e-mailed Kelly (one of my old girls youth directors) and asked her where she'd found Cornerstone.  Though she said she could not remember, she did give me an awesome website where I could look at ads from churches for ministry opportunities.  I do my first search, only limiting it to the U.S. and start scanning through the list of ads.  The ones in Houston and Katy of course catch my attention first, and on the second page my eyes land on a church that looks familiar.  I click on the link and sure enough, it's one of the churches in my hometown.  I know the assistant pastor and the current youth director and they are looking for a girls youth minister.

Needless to say I got really excited.  There was skipping involved.

After e-mailing said youth director (via facebook, which has been rather weird lately, at least for me) he e-mails me back confirming my question and offering to send an application if I'll send my e-mail address.  Perfect.  The clouds opened up and the angels sang.  Now it's just a waiting game, not to mention one where God is teaching me to trust and to wait patiently.  At this point there is nothing I can do but pray, and if He wants me in this job, then there will be nothing to stop that.  But I WORRY!  I'm in Peru and might not get back until July.  Will this 'perfect job' wait for that?  What if facebook, which won't let me reply to messages at the moment, dropped the one I was able to send and the guy never got it?  What if I just plain don't get it?  It's so perfect!  It's close to my family (something I've really been missing here), it's something I've always wanted to do, and I know people at the church.  Needless to say, the past four or five days have made me a bit nervous.  However, I'm reminded of God's promise to Abraham.  He said that even in his old age, Abraham would have a child through Sarah who was barren.  Though my situation is not nearly as astronomically important as Abraham's, it is still important to me and Abraham's story reminds me that God's plan is perfect, and that all I have to do is trust.  Psalm 46:10 says "Be still and know that I am God."  I need to learn to simply be still, and that no matter what happens, His plans are for the best.


Kiki said...

Hey, I know what church you're talking about! ;) It's exciting to have you applying!!

Courtney said...

Hey thanks! So am I, I just hope I hear soon. I keep asking God to teach me patience and He keeps putting me in these situations where I have to be patient... I don't know what the deal is. Hehe.